I finally found someone who will go to the gym with me. We are supposed to start tonight. I weighed myself this morning and I'm 180.6 pounds. That is less than what I expected, less than what I was a few months ago when I started trying to lose weight before. But more than when I quit.
My plan is to go to the gym 3 times a week. I will also start walking my dog, as opposed to just letting her run around on her own. I will eat less, and eat healthier. And of course drink more water. My goal is to get down to 150, assuming I don't get pregnant first.
Yesterday my DH and I BD and afterwards while he was cleaning up he noticed some brown CM. So he asked if I had started and I said no. He said well then I think you're about to. Devastation! I can not explain how hard it is to find out each month that I am not pregnant. AF hasn't exactly shown yet but I'm sure she will.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Friday, July 25, 2008
What if this is it??
I had a slight panic attack last night while talking with my husband. He casually mentioned being pregnant, and I flipped out! How can we afford this, what am I going to do if he's not here for the birth, how hard is it going to be to take care of a baby with him gone, are we going to be good parents, what about our families, who would have a shower for me down here, who is going to tell me what I need to buy... Total basketcase!
He tried to calm me down, in his usual guy manner "It will be okay." And I screamed at him, "HOW?!?!" Oh man, I'm a complete wreck already and I don't even know if I am pregnant or not. After talking it through, we came to a few conclusions.
1. I will definitely be having the baby here, whether he is deployed or not. I need to be able to be "at home" getting the nursery and everything together. Plus, there is the whole doctor issue. I don't want to have to switch doctors back and forth. It is more than likely that my mom would come down for the delivery, and probably my aunt. I am not sure about a birthing coach. I guess we'll get to that when it is time. I don't know about his mom... and frankly, I'm not concerned.
2. Plenty of people have babies with deploying parents. We will just have to work it out. With technology, we can still be connected.
3. I assume that my family and friends will want me to head north for a shower. I guess it's going to have to work. Otherwise, it's all about www.babiesrus.com.
So now I feel slightly better. I think it just kind of hit me like, oh my God, what are we thinking?
On a side note, I tested another negative, but AF has still not shown up. I'm going with the whole O 5 days later than normal, which would make sense for me to start AF 5 days later. If I haven't started by Monday, I'll think about testing again. I can't take the negatives.
He tried to calm me down, in his usual guy manner "It will be okay." And I screamed at him, "HOW?!?!" Oh man, I'm a complete wreck already and I don't even know if I am pregnant or not. After talking it through, we came to a few conclusions.
1. I will definitely be having the baby here, whether he is deployed or not. I need to be able to be "at home" getting the nursery and everything together. Plus, there is the whole doctor issue. I don't want to have to switch doctors back and forth. It is more than likely that my mom would come down for the delivery, and probably my aunt. I am not sure about a birthing coach. I guess we'll get to that when it is time. I don't know about his mom... and frankly, I'm not concerned.
2. Plenty of people have babies with deploying parents. We will just have to work it out. With technology, we can still be connected.
3. I assume that my family and friends will want me to head north for a shower. I guess it's going to have to work. Otherwise, it's all about www.babiesrus.com.
So now I feel slightly better. I think it just kind of hit me like, oh my God, what are we thinking?
On a side note, I tested another negative, but AF has still not shown up. I'm going with the whole O 5 days later than normal, which would make sense for me to start AF 5 days later. If I haven't started by Monday, I'll think about testing again. I can't take the negatives.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
June-July cycle
My new cycle started on June 22. I attempted to chart using www.fertilityfriend.com but wasn't able to finish out the cycle, first by being out of town for assumed ovulation (aka O), and then due to my battery dying in my thermometer. I began taking 1 Geritol Complete daily starting with CD1, supplementing with folic acid (GNC), and baby apsirin. I had about 4-5 days of "Aunt Flow" (aka AF), which is totally normal for me.
Husband and I had intercourse (aka BD - baby dance) on CD 7, 10, 15, 18, 20 and 27. At first I thought I O'd on CD 15, which would have been consistant with the previous cycle. I know that I O'd somewhere around June 6th, which would have been CD15 also. However, that would then put me at 16DPO and my last test (poas) was on Sunday (CD29), and it was negative. I did test last Wednesday (CD24) and had a very, very faint positive on an internet cheapie. All tests after were negative, so I assumed it was a false positive. I now think that I may have actually O'd on CD 20, which would now make me 11DPO.
So far, some of my symptoms have included:
AF-like cramps
Constipation
Headaches
Tired but unable to fall asleep
Vivid dreams
Light nausea
Heartburn
Just a general feeling that this really COULD be it
Some of this could be just regular, everyday type stuff though. So I don't really put too much stock into it. I have been telling everyone that if I do not start by morning that I will poas again... but I'm not sure I will be able to hold out until then.
Take care.
Husband and I had intercourse (aka BD - baby dance) on CD 7, 10, 15, 18, 20 and 27. At first I thought I O'd on CD 15, which would have been consistant with the previous cycle. I know that I O'd somewhere around June 6th, which would have been CD15 also. However, that would then put me at 16DPO and my last test (poas) was on Sunday (CD29), and it was negative. I did test last Wednesday (CD24) and had a very, very faint positive on an internet cheapie. All tests after were negative, so I assumed it was a false positive. I now think that I may have actually O'd on CD 20, which would now make me 11DPO.
So far, some of my symptoms have included:
AF-like cramps
Constipation
Headaches
Tired but unable to fall asleep
Vivid dreams
Light nausea
Heartburn
Just a general feeling that this really COULD be it
Some of this could be just regular, everyday type stuff though. So I don't really put too much stock into it. I have been telling everyone that if I do not start by morning that I will poas again... but I'm not sure I will be able to hold out until then.
Take care.
My introduction
I decided to make this blog for a few reasons, such as:
1. My husband and I are currently trying to conceive our first child. I would like to keep a record of everything that goes into that, including what medicine we take, when we go to the doctor and have intercourse, and what "symptoms" and feelings I have. I also want to keep track of my emotions better, and have a place to put down ideas for names and bedding.
2. My husband is in the military and I am away from my family and friends. Sometimes, that gets extremely lonely. I think that writing out what I do, think, feel will help me feel less stressed and/or depressed. When he is away, this will be my record of our distance. I wish that I would've thought to do this on his first deployment, but no worries, there are always more.
3. I want to start taking better care of myself. I hope to make myself accountable for what I eat, or if I don't exercise, or whatever. I think that this is very important because it will, supposedly, make it easier to conceive. It will also, hopefully, make me more responsible.
So there you have it. The three main reasons that I made this blog. If anyone reads it, and has a question, feel free to ask away. I appreciate any interest a future reader may have in my little life story.
I suppose I should do a little bit of a background on myself, since I did call this an introduction. I am 27 years old, born in a small town in northern Ohio, raised in the suburbs outside of Cincinnati. My parents are still married, although perhaps they shouldn't. I have two brothers, although I am only in contact with one. They both have one daughter each, and I am extremely close with one of them. As I said, my husband is in the military, so I made the move to North Carolina to be with him. I am currently unemployed, but looking. I worked as a fast food manager for years, which leaves me qualified for almost nothing but more restaurants.
That will do for now.
1. My husband and I are currently trying to conceive our first child. I would like to keep a record of everything that goes into that, including what medicine we take, when we go to the doctor and have intercourse, and what "symptoms" and feelings I have. I also want to keep track of my emotions better, and have a place to put down ideas for names and bedding.
2. My husband is in the military and I am away from my family and friends. Sometimes, that gets extremely lonely. I think that writing out what I do, think, feel will help me feel less stressed and/or depressed. When he is away, this will be my record of our distance. I wish that I would've thought to do this on his first deployment, but no worries, there are always more.
3. I want to start taking better care of myself. I hope to make myself accountable for what I eat, or if I don't exercise, or whatever. I think that this is very important because it will, supposedly, make it easier to conceive. It will also, hopefully, make me more responsible.
So there you have it. The three main reasons that I made this blog. If anyone reads it, and has a question, feel free to ask away. I appreciate any interest a future reader may have in my little life story.
I suppose I should do a little bit of a background on myself, since I did call this an introduction. I am 27 years old, born in a small town in northern Ohio, raised in the suburbs outside of Cincinnati. My parents are still married, although perhaps they shouldn't. I have two brothers, although I am only in contact with one. They both have one daughter each, and I am extremely close with one of them. As I said, my husband is in the military, so I made the move to North Carolina to be with him. I am currently unemployed, but looking. I worked as a fast food manager for years, which leaves me qualified for almost nothing but more restaurants.
That will do for now.
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